Hyperventilating is no way to live, you are using up someone else’s air. Stop it.
Take a breath. Just one more. In and out. And decide.
You may emerge more dead than alive. That is the nature of the beast. This uncertainty.
And you know what to do with beasts. Chain them, control them, make them plough a field. But don’t take them to heart. For one thing, they die before you. You don’t want to be the person crying over a carcass and marveling at all that potential lost.
Have some faith.